Of Dust & Light
Where I am right now, embracing our wholeness and being present with the sacred gift of life.
Dear beloved,
How are you? And how is your beautiful heart?
I pray these words find you at peace in your humanity and your spirituality. I pray your heart has remained open in a world that is showing us just how closed hearts still remain. And I pray for your courage, strength and humility in walking the sacred path deep into yourself - because truly, it is the most difficult yet most rewarding journey you will ever take. And it will require all of you, every single little bit.
For the past couple of months, I have taken a step back from the outer world in my own way, retreating to the sanctuary within and taking the precious time that I have to reconnect more meaningfully to myself and to God. I always feel a little apprehensive sharing the most meaningful and sacred experiences of my life in a space where they can easily be judged or tainted, yet at the same time, I know deeply that I must share what I am called to because it’s all a remembrance, a calling and an unfolding of the Divine.
When 2025 rolled in, I was certain of my plans for the year, where my energy and attention were going to flow and all of the things I was hell-bent on achieving. We are now way over a quarter of the way in and none of it has yet materialised, or really even begun.
The truth is, we can plan as much as we want to, but our ultimate destiny doesn’t lie in our hands; it lies in the hands of the One who created us. In the book Loyalty to Your Soul by Ronald & Mary Hulnick, they describe this idea of each soul coming to this earth with its own personal spiritual curriculum: lessons that each particular soul must learn for its own expansion and growth. Lessons that there are just no getting away from. And when I read this, it encapsulated so powerfully the concept of destiny, but in a way I hadn’t heard it described before. It’s not so much about the situations that unfold in our lives, but more so about the lessons that are presented to us again and again. The circumstances simply provide the platform for the lesson. The opportunity to learn these lessons makes up our destiny, and our free will lies in the choices we make when these opportunities for growth and expansion present themselves to us.
And through what life has shown me so far, all of this requires us, with complete surrender, to be present with life exactly as it is unfolding in front of us.
So that’s where you will find me. I’m in a season of my life where I’m surrendering to the lessons that continue calling my name; I’m in a season of my life where I no longer want to resist what life is gifting me, in her tender strength and in her ultimate knowing that I am in desperate need of what she brings. I am in a season of my life where I know profoundly that my freedom doesn’t lie anywhere outside of me; it can only be found within.
Truth be told, ever since becoming a mother 11 years ago, way before I wanted and definitely before I had even planned it, there has been a part of me that has resisted it, perhaps even at times resented it. A part of me that has been trapped in her 24-year-old self, winded and wounded by her own self-imposed belief that life was being stolen from her despite the new life growing so gracefully inside of her.
All these years later, intermittently, I have carried the feeling that the life I wanted to create on the outside was stolen from me, while knowing deeply still that life has unfolded perfectly inside me, in line with my deepest desires and prayers to know God truly, deeply and fully.
In the past couple of months, through prayer, remembrance, contemplation, meditation, and sacred whispered conversations with the Divine, He has revealed to me - despite the long, winding, at times tumultuous and excruciatingly painful journey I have been on, on my personal pilgrimage back to Being thus far - some of the places within myself where I am still not free. He has shown me in the most subtle and obvious ways the lessons that my soul still needs to learn, with the outer circumstances that have been my companions since becoming a mother, illuminating the inner work that needs to be addressed. He has, in His Divine mercy and His pure unconditional Love, revealed the path laid with thorns that my soul has been placed upon, yearns to travel upon and must travel upon to meet myself even more deeply.
And that’s where I am right now. In the process of surrender and flow. In the process of self-acceptance, completely, fully - and deep gratitude for the sacred unfolding of life, exactly as it is. In the process of rekindling my burning passion for God, for Words, for Truth, for Humanity, for Dust, for Light, for Unbecoming.
Where I am right now is present with life, in its entirety, as the spiritual being that I am, living this sacred human experience.
I no longer want to force. I no longer want to chase. I no longer want to be afflicted by social media algorithms. I no longer want the approval or validation of anyone outside of myself.
I no longer want to hide parts of myself. I no longer want to tiptoe around my love for God. I no longer want to make myself uncomfortable to make others comfortable.
I no longer want to push and fight and resist the destiny that life has gifted me. My personal destiny. My personal journey. Mine. Inextricably linked to each and every one of yours.
I no longer want to keep quiet in the face of injustice, racism, prejudice and all of the barriers we have built between us as human beings. I no longer want to tame the voice of Truth to protect anyone’s feelings.
I no longer want to write for any other reason than this being the yearning of my heart and the work of my soul. Nothing else.
My gift is my words. And this is where I continue to arrive time and time again. I am the words. And God is the space between the words, the One who gives them meaning, sense and feeling. The One who gives them life.
And so, Dust & Light was born. A new name for my Substack and my healing work, where I am fully embracing this human experience through a God-centred, Heart-centred, Soul-centred lens.
I pray the words that flow through me offer your soul some peace. That they remind you of your infinite beauty and power and wisdom. I pray that they bring you closer to yourself and to the whole of this human family. I pray the words that flow through me act as a bridge between your inner and outer worlds. I pray they act as a bridge from your Being to the Divine. I pray that they remind you of the dust you were created from, the sacred human experience that your soul chose to embrace, the eternal breath that was breathed into you and the most beautiful, most pure Divine Light that lives within you, just waiting for you to go within to discover it.
We are human, and we are spirit. We are mind and body, and we are heart and soul. We are temporary, and we are eternal. We are dust, and we are light. Let us remember the entirety of all that we are. Let us remember, let us surrender, and let us be - right here, right now, with all of it.
Welcome to Dust & Light, my friends. Let’s walk this sacred path - together.
With Love, Light & Peace from my heart to yours,
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“I no longer want to force. I no longer want to chase.” These lines and the ones that followed really spoke to me. Unbecoming means no longer following the old rules, but I think it takes us a while to realize that and create new rules for ourselves. This was brave and inspiring. Love the new name! As always, so happy to read your writing!❤️
Welcome back. It seems we have both been traveling a similar path.
“I no longer want to hide parts of myself. I no longer want to tiptoe around my love for God. I no longer want to make myself uncomfortable to make others comfortable.” So with you.